I’ve changed so much since my days of going to the country school (which is closer to me then the high school I’m going to now) and I think I may have left a huge part of me behind in those halls. I only realized this by driving past it for the first time in three years. My friends knew me back then. After going to a small school with a handful of people for 10 years you can know someone really well. You know their past, you know their present, you know what made them who they are, you know them through and through. And I was tired with that, I wanted to be another face in a crowd of un-knowing people. It’d be more comfortable or something like that. The only way I could complete this self goal was to change myself. I wanted to be different unique and that’s okay. But the thing is I’ve worked so hard to change myself, my musical taste, my style, my thoughts, that now I don’t have anything left to change. I’m a new person and I have left some of myself behind.
My friends don’t know my past that well, and I don’t want them to. Can I be true friends with somebody who does not know that information? Have I finally got what I wanted, to be faceless within a crowd?
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