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Its almost over and I’m excited. I made him awkward and I yelled at him and told him I wasn’t mad but I wasn’t, just sad. Come down here, I will.

Don’t try to impress me with your credentials, they don’t mean a thing in the real world. The movie was supposed to make me happy but it just made me squirm unhappily. I want to tell you but it looks like somebody else beat me to it. I don’t think I deserved supper today. All the music in my head are guilty pleasures and I hate myself for having guilty pleasures.

I’m not a racist, I swear, but these Indian people talked to me and I felt scared. The roads were icy and your boots didn’t find the traction they needed. It was fun making fun.

You made me try on clothes and I was uncomfortable, you just wanted to make me feel that way so you could laugh about it later.  You tried to find something wrong, but you couldn’t because I was truly fine.

I really, really, really, don’t think so. Its really, really, really, not easy. I woke up and everything went straight to my neck, right over my chin, my nose, my forehead, and over my mane.

I feel sad today. I’ve been feeling sad a lot lately. I think that it’d be different if I weren’t lonely, but maybe if I was with someone I’d feel sad too. Its the genes they tell me, the jeans. But the sadness isn’t a depressed sad, its just sad. Its tired too, and sometimes lazy. I’ll be fine I swear. Early bedtime.

I didn’t know how to say it so I didn’t say anything.  Then I got asked and I told it like it is.  I forgot how good you looked

“You are in an odd mood today.”  “I know, its weird.”  “I like it.”   “See, there’s consequences to being in a good mood.”  “What?”  “I get sick.”  “One time I barfed an entire grape up.”  “Don’t say that.”  “You’re going to puke two of them right out of your nose.”  “Oh good, I’m almost home.”

I said I would and I did.  I told you don’t worry about it and you did.  I took that test and tried my best, I promise.

Tonight I’m not going to try anything new.  I don’t need the hassle.  Maybe I’ll wish I knew what I wanted, wish I got what came up, with you were happy, wish you could be next to me.

“I had green tea.” “Yeah?” “In the snow, in plaid.”

My hands were numb, but the attack went away. I suppose thats all that matters. The roads were icy in the city this morning. I was such a grease ball but I don’t think God cares much.